Portal to another dimension
Portal
For as long as I can remember, I've been living on the edge, but I'm nonetheless stunned at how life has been pushing my boat further and further out, especially in the last year.
Limits? They just don't seem to apply anymore to the tasks I'm being charged with, in the form of visions and guidance for my future works. However, deluded and crazy that sometimes makes me feel and probably look! 😊
At this point, I am much less interested in their external appearance, because I feel I have tapped into something extraordinary – beyond anything I could have imagined in my wildest dreams!
I suppose I am simply free and ready to put everything into pursuing these visions with all that I have acquired and with the elements I can access, even if they seem so bizarrely "naive" to others, and to myself sometimes, I admit.
They seem quite improbable, even impossible, for a programmed mind, however powerful and beautiful they may be! We can all see the challenges clear as day. It's very simple! We have all been programmed with the same means.
The difference is that I have been actively deprogramming for over 25 years now, triggered by severe illness, and I am now being guided from a higher dimension. A dimension where the impossible simply does not exist? Or am I being guided through "cracks" in solid, seemingly unmovable and unchanging Great Walls of China within the matrix right here.
And my job, my "mission" is not to ask myself if what I am asked to do is possible. My mission is execution, plain and simple. To bring these visions - these "weapons of light" from beyond. To pour into them the inspired intention. That they shall be the catalyst for transmutation they are destined to be, on a planet that so desperately needs it. And that they shall do their work where I am guided to position them. To the exact point on the planet.
My current task is the creation of a giant portal.
Many portals have come into being through me over the past 10 years in the form of wall sculptures. All energetic transfers. But this portal is different.
I am receiving clear instructions to create a life-size portal that we can all walk through. A portal that will be a catalyst for rebirth. A portal that will "shake my own world first".
The fear I felt when I received this transmission was visceral! But it was time to move beyond emotion and take action to start the glass fusing process for the centerpiece.
After a deep meditation, I went through the motions of preparing recycled bottles and crushing glass. I started pouring the frit into my kiln, and before my eyes my hands took a different trajectory to that "planned". I was now creating huge circles of thick glass frit. And matching swirls.
That was the first time this has happened!
The glass melting furnace is not a place to play with frit placement. Once in, it's in, otherwise the limewash coating gets scratched and the glass is impossible to remove without breaking it, once melted and hardened.
One day later, after it had cooled, I opened the kiln to see if the firing had gone well. And at that moment, the visceral fear returned immediately.
The power that the centerpiece radiated while lying in the bottom of the kiln was and still is beyond unsettling!
This "thing" really seems to be coming through into physical form. Maybe something really and truly is birthing right now for humanity. To help us take a big step forward.
I can't wait to discover it. We have been waiting long enough for a major transformation on our planet!
Re-birth
Who re-births who? And what is “our” role in this?
Birth is an easily understood process – certainly its physical aspects. But what about re-birth?
Since committing to my artist mission in mid may of this year, I have plunged into a profound re-birthing process, both deeply painful and exhilarating.
I accepted in every cell of my being that just as I suspected as a child, I have a very unique and powerful mission to which I will have to give my unwavering 100% to fulfil.
My mission is to create and position weapons of light around the planet – both a highly inspiring and daunting task!
With this responsibility to be a crystal-clear conduit for the divine, I quickly accepted that to be completely efficient, I need to set myself free of all blockages in my own life. Blockages block energy. There is no longer room for blockages in my life, or in my body/vessel.
And the pretty major blockage which fairly well detonated in my face within a few days of committing to this journey, and which I’m currently working through, albeit at lightning speed, is my sense of lack.
Lack of love. Lack of human connection.
This goes right back to the very beginning – before birth even, and it’s probably a theme we all have to deal with at some stage or other. I imagine most probably deal with it on their death bed.
But it detonated for me with such force bringing up so much pain that it was simply unbearable. I had to put it down one way or another. The hollowness I felt meant something had to implode rapidly. Heartbreak was on the horizon no matter what direction I looked. I couldn’t see a way through the despair. The situation was fucked in a nutshell.
And in the rarest moment of grace, I managed to just let go on a whole new level. Let go of everything. Fuck it, what was there to lose? And I finally surrendered completely and utterly to the divine.
I had read for years, decades now, that the goal was trusting in life. Allowing life – or the divine – do its thing. But until that moment I simply just wasn’t ready no matter how many nudges I got, or even bricks on the head!
But what has that actually meant for me – letting go? Trusting life?
It means I am now embracing life on a whole new level. I am knocking the stable walls down. I am done with outdated programming, societally imposed limitations, “shoulds” and “should nots” taboos. I’m only interested in the now, how that unfolds in front of me, and through me. And I’m no longer invested in judging the process. For the first time in my life I am truly setting myself free, however uncomfortable the process.
I accept that I am an expression of the divine in all I do. And the divine seeks to flood my being with its light and love. So, I resist no more. If I catch myself resisting, I remind myself that it’s just that: resistance.
How can I resist love? How can I resist life in the full knowing that its purpose is to bring me back to love? And that it will achieve that either way eventually.
I know that if I’m going to find the divine anywhere it’s right here. Right now. And so I choose to see the love in front of me right here and right now. If I can’t see it with my myopia, I commit to look harder until I do find it. Because it is everywhere. And it is the truth of who we are. Every single one of us, however far removed we feel from it.